1 week has passed..

and all my results are out. and so FAR are all A's.

really aiming for A's or even DIST.

please. maintain maintain maintain.

and PLUS improve improve improve.

time passess that fast.

its just a few more weeks to out EXAMS.

and EXAMS = CHINESE NEW YEAR.

the CNY week clashes with EXAMS.

sickeningg...

if they pusshh forward its better!

BUTTT.it also means we have lesser time to study !

SIANS!!

MOREOVER, assignments are never ending .

i hopedddd i can hurry finished UP my POLY!

and i know when i finished my poly.

i will feel like coming back to POLY life again.

okays. and i shall cont to say wad were i doing on FRIDAY SATURDAY and SUNDAY.

okays. FRIDAY..

after school met dear for lunch in school.

after that off to home to put my bag and my laptop.

before meeting mavis at HOUGANG.

after that when shopping around at TOWN.

i think TOWN has become my 2nd place for shopping during HOLIDAYS.

and im SICK of ittttt..

anyone has anywhere else to SUGGEST ?

but even though there is i dont think i have the TIME.

okay. after that v and g came to join us after their school ended.

and we went shop shop shop..

and all was actually windoww shopping.

crapped alot during those times.

and those were the days that made me think back.

how nice if i was still in sec school now.

and i can enjoyyy my life even better.

CHILLED OUT most of the time.

CHATTED alot during that whole dayy.

went to see DUCKIES.

anyways. its OVERALL fun fun fun.

and its LONGGG since i ever LAUGHED to my FULLEST.

really ENJOYED the times with my FRIENDS.

in the end i never went to FLY KITE anymore.

cause dear sayss he have to be back in hall on sundayy for his soccer match.

and it was again LAST MIN.

was really really SAD.

and i knew it on THURS.

the KITE have been saying since he have his holidays till now.

and until now haven even go and fly.

this last min is FOREVER and EVER happening to me.

but its not that i dont want to be understanding.

its just that i just cant accept anything that spoils my earlier plan.

and end up everything is SCREWED.

i dont know if you even felt excited for that day.

and mayb you didnt so you cant understand how i feel.

and how do you expect me to be understanding when its always giving me dissappointment

i know that you have already informed me before hand that many of these will come out..

but do you think its fair to me.

i hope you can really put yourself into my shoes.

and think if it was you.

and you are freaking excited for this outing. and yet everything is screwed.

you wont feel good also isnt it ?

started school for 3 days alreadyy!

the feeling is justt so weirdd..

suddenly not used to it!

cannot stay up till very late.

cannot wake up at 12.

and being forced to slp at 12 and wake up at 6plus.

so tiringg!

so not used to ittt!

and i hateeeee IT!

anyways got back 2 papers for MST.

results were okay okay onlyyy..

mayb its my high expectation again bahh..

hmmm.. both A's..

i must must must maintain this gradee!

GAMBATTE!

im only left with DBMS paper to see.

hope the results are not too BAD

and i cant change for IT!

pissing sia!

and vicky passed away yesterday.. ):

saddd...

rest in peace vicky (:

although its sad.. but it cant be helped.

inherited the illness from her mother !

okays.tml i will be getting back my DBMS MST paperr!

don't even wish to take back the paper!

drops and drops of water rolling offf my face.

wad is the meaning of holidays.

is not for you to go back to school.

end up

you have to go back to school every single day.

weekdays you got IHG

weekends you got match

yah. you say saturday after match come back.

think it through. you will confirm be tired after the match

and not wan to go out.

sunday night you have to go back.

it is even worst then your school time

when is this going to end

is it worth it.

you can browse through the msn history

and see for yourself.

wad are the topics you told me about.

hall hall hall.

have you ever ask anything about me.

im just venting my anger and unhappiness here

there is really no one to talk to.

i really suddenly dont wished to talk to you.

seriously.

im really damn sick and tired of this.

and im damn pissed off

and now you have already gone to slp

when will you ever have time for me.
when will you even remember me when you are busy.
i am totally cluelesss about wads going on.
sometimes feeling lonely and down.
i can even get you.
just to share with you how i felt.
all alone at home.
to you its good.
but for me its not.
really hate the lonelinesss.
where werre you when i ever needed you to be with me.
i just request to be able to talk to you
is it that hard for you?

promises that makeee must be fulfilled.
if not it is not called a promise.
morning say will message me.
end up i wake up .
not a single message.
is it that hard to msg to inform me you have woken up.
i was even thinking whether to call you to wake u up.
but afraid you were slping.
come back from your busy.
say chat later.
okay. fine.
go dinner also never say.
i like some retarded talking to someone who is not even there.
come back from dinner.
i know you will be busying your stufff.
chat later.
okay. i understand.
but come back.
say need to go offline already.
always say but never do.

going home also never say.
message say you going home now very harD?
until you online.
never auto say you at home.
until i ask what time you going home. and you said now already at home.
i really have no idea about wads going on.
everything is really very rush.

though i have enjoyed the times with you last week.

does it mean that all these enjoyment and fun that i have

is a replacement for this whole week?

if thats the case. i rather not have all those...

i really need some care and concern sometimes.
okay. even though not care and concern.
just need you to inform me about wads going on now for you.
i really felt totally clueless.
like im not of use.
like i need not know everything.

mayb you wan to calculate.
how many sentences did we say to each other today.
i really have no idea.
when will you have time for me ?
when i needed you most, you werent there for me..
needed your advice, im clueless about where you are now.
having doubts about whether shld call you. or shld not
afraid of calling you will disturb you.
messaging you will disturb you.
i really dont know.

can you pls tell me

is it my problem?

school time. you are always busy.

busy with school stuff.

exams

test.

i really understand..

however.. even holiday... you are also that busy..

does it really mean the whole year.

throughout your uni life.

you will be that busy ?

a long long time no update le..

have been rushing assignments!

JAVA!

ICD!

DBMS

POSTER DESIGN

all at one go..

due at the same time!

hate it man!

and its alll OVER .

wad a great sighh of relief ((:

and mst is like only.. 50 mins awayy.. to the next day!

lol..

i will be having my first paper at 10.30!

and dear will be having his last paper from 9 to 11!

dear! jiayous!

we can do it together.!

and SHOO the exams awayyy!!

far far away!!!

totallyy!~

no confidence in my DBMS!

will be studying after paper everydayy...

for intensive revision!

aiming for 3.9 this SEM!

one of my goals. for this SEM in poly!

to pull my GPA high high high

which means also stress level will be high

and more KIASUU!!!

fyp group members found alreadyy!

yeahh!~

doing with pl and xz!

cool mann!!~

never do proj with them before.

and it may be a good experience.

and good chance to see more.

and know how is it like doing with other ppl.

rather than keep staying at the same grp of peoplee!

okayy. and i think i shall stop herE!

going to SLPP!

mst is starting TML!

good luck to all my classmates and FRIENDS!

FOR TML's MST!! ((:

GAMBATTEEE!

i really had a satisfying 2 hours 30 min ! ((:

although its just a short and plain 2 hours 30 min..

with your time spent together with your friends.

im already satisfied with being able to see you..

yesterday CHOMP CHOMP was a great day.

having you to say to meet me..

although it was last min and a bit rush..

although did not bear to part from you.

but i will still loook forward to every moment to meet you ((:

yesterday he told me he study until kee siaoo..

i can sense and can feel that he has lack of confidence.

what i can only do is to always be there for him...

and dear ends his paper at 7dec.

im feeling very irritated

damn sian!

whole day stay home

without any disturbance

i just want a peaceful day

like that also dont give me

bloody hell.

nobody ask you to cook for us wad.

also not i ask you to cook one.

scold me for what!

irritating POS!

and you never even think of why i dont like to stay at home

everytime say got boyf dont have family

who made me stay away from home

if i have such a wonderful family like my other friends have

can go out any time i want

as late as i want

without anybody to nagg at me

sister sit at living room