Feelings

2010-01-10T22:51:00.012+08:00

1 week has passed..

and all my results are out. and so FAR are all A's.

really aiming for A's or even DIST.

please. maintain maintain maintain.

and PLUS improve improve improve.

time passess that fast.

its just a few more weeks to out EXAMS.

and EXAMS = CHINESE NEW YEAR.

the CNY week clashes with EXAMS.

sickeningg...

if they pusshh forward its better!

BUTTT.it also means we have lesser time to study !

SIANS!!

MOREOVER, assignments are never ending .

JAVA.

ICD.

IWGD.

GEMS.

i hopedddd i can hurry finished UP my POLY!

and i know when i finished my poly.

i will feel like coming back to POLY life again.

okays. and i shall cont to say wad were i doing on FRIDAY SATURDAY and SUNDAY.

okays. FRIDAY..

after school met dear for lunch in school.

after that off to home to put my bag and my laptop.

before meeting mavis at HOUGANG.

after that when shopping around at TOWN.

i think TOWN has become my 2nd place for shopping during HOLIDAYS.

and im SICK of ittttt..

anyone has anywhere else to SUGGEST ?

but even though there is i dont think i have the TIME.

okay. after that v and g came to join us after their school ended.

and we went shop shop shop..

and all was actually windoww shopping.

crapped alot during those times.

and those were the days that made me think back.

how nice if i was still in sec school now.

and i can enjoyyy my life even better.

CHILLED OUT most of the time.

CHATTED alot during that whole dayy.

went to see DUCKIES.

anyways. its OVERALL fun fun fun.

and its LONGGG since i ever LAUGHED to my FULLEST.

really ENJOYED the times with my FRIENDS.

WEEKENDS = SATURDAY & SUNDAY.

in the end i never went to FLY KITE anymore.

cause dear sayss he have to be back in hall on sundayy for his soccer match.

and it was again LAST MIN.

was really really SAD.

and i knew it on THURS.

the KITE have been saying since he have his holidays till now.

and until now haven even go and fly.

BET the next time we go will be 10 years later.

this last min is FOREVER and EVER happening to me.

i really have been trying to be understanding enough

but its not that i dont want to be understanding.

its just that i just cant accept anything that spoils my earlier plan.

and i know its not fair to you..

but isnt it more even not fair to me?

i have to everyday sit there. wait for you to be free.

plan on what activities we want to do.

feeling that excited. feeling very qi dai to that day

and end up everything is SCREWED.

i dont know if you even felt excited for that day.

and mayb you didnt so you cant understand how i feel.

and how do you expect me to be understanding when its always giving me dissappointment

time and time and again.

i know that you have already informed me before hand that many of these will come out..

but do you think its fair to me.

and have you even thought of how i felt.?

the feeling its really TERRIBLE.

and sometimes i really BLAMED myself.

why did i felt to excited for...?

if i didnt feel so excited mayb all this would not even happen...

and maybe its always my FATE to be in all this suffering!

i hope you can really put yourself into my shoes.

and think if it was you.

and you are freaking excited for this outing. and yet everything is screwed.

you wont feel good also isnt it ?

i really HOPED that there will be a solution to THIS.

PLEASE. i will really need to solve this!

else i will feel very terrible..

i missed those days when you are not having holidays.. ):

at least i still can study with you. without having all these nonsense.

2010-01-06T20:15:00.006+08:00

started school for 3 days alreadyy!

the feeling is justt so weirdd..

suddenly not used to it!

cannot stay up till very late.

cannot wake up at 12.

and being forced to slp at 12 and wake up at 6plus.

ARGH!

so tiringg!

so not used to ittt!

and i hateeeee IT!

ROARSS!

anyways got back 2 papers for MST.

results were okay okay onlyyy..

mayb its my high expectation again bahh..

Maths : 92.

ICD : 83.5.

hmmm.. both A's..

i must must must maintain this gradee!

GAMBATTE!

im only left with DBMS paper to see.

hope the results are not too BAD

PRAYY!

and yesterday met dear after my school to collect my shoe!

and i saw another canvas shoe!

nicer than the one i bought!

ROARS!

and i cant change for IT!

why why why!!

ROARSSSSS!

whine whine whineee like heLL!

pissing sia!

and vicky passed away yesterday.. ):

saddd...

rest in peace vicky (:

although its sad.. but it cant be helped.

inherited the illness from her mother !

okays.tml i will be getting back my DBMS MST paperr!

NERVOUS!~~

SCARY!~~

don't even wish to take back the paper!

ROARSSS!!!~~

2009-12-16T23:46:00.005+08:00

drops and drops of water rolling offf my face.

wad is the meaning of holidays.

is not for you to go back to school.

end up

you have to go back to school every single day.

weekdays you got IHG

weekends you got match

yah. you say saturday after match come back.

think it through. you will confirm be tired after the match

and not wan to go out.

sunday night you have to go back.

it is even worst then your school time

when is this going to end

is it worth it.

you can browse through the msn history

and see for yourself.

wad are the topics you told me about.

hall hall hall.

have you ever ask anything about me.

im just venting my anger and unhappiness here

there is really no one to talk to.

i really suddenly dont wished to talk to you.

seriously.

im really damn sick and tired of this.

and im damn pissed off

and now you have already gone to slp

2009-12-16T00:52:00.006+08:00

when will you ever have time for me.
when will you even remember me when you are busy.
i am totally cluelesss about wads going on.
sometimes feeling lonely and down.
i can even get you.
just to share with you how i felt.
all alone at home.
to you its good.
but for me its not.
really hate the lonelinesss.
where werre you when i ever needed you to be with me.
i just request to be able to talk to you
is it that hard for you?

promises that makeee must be fulfilled.
if not it is not called a promise.
morning say will message me.
end up i wake up .
not a single message.
is it that hard to msg to inform me you have woken up.
i was even thinking whether to call you to wake u up.
but afraid you were slping.
come back from your busy.
say chat later.
okay. fine.
go dinner also never say.
i like some retarded talking to someone who is not even there.
come back from dinner.
i know you will be busying your stufff.
chat later.
okay. i understand.
but come back.
say need to go offline already.
always say but never do.

going home also never say.
message say you going home now very harD?
until you online.
never auto say you at home.
until i ask what time you going home. and you said now already at home.
i really have no idea about wads going on.
everything is really very rush.

though i have enjoyed the times with you last week.

does it mean that all these enjoyment and fun that i have

is a replacement for this whole week?

if thats the case. i rather not have all those...

i really need some care and concern sometimes.
okay. even though not care and concern.
just need you to inform me about wads going on now for you.
i really felt totally clueless.
like im not of use.
like i need not know everything.

mayb you wan to calculate.
how many sentences did we say to each other today.
i really have no idea.
when will you have time for me ?
when i needed you most, you werent there for me..
needed your advice, im clueless about where you are now.
having doubts about whether shld call you. or shld not
afraid of calling you will disturb you.
messaging you will disturb you.
i really dont know.

can you pls tell me

is it my problem?

school time. you are always busy.

busy with school stuff.

exams

test.

i really understand..

however.. even holiday... you are also that busy..

does it really mean the whole year.

throughout your uni life.

you will be that busy ?

2009-12-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

a long long time no update le..

have been rushing assignments!

JAVA!

ICD!

DBMS

POSTER DESIGN

all at one go..

due at the same time!

hate it man!

and its alll OVER .

wad a great sighh of relief ((:

and mst is like only.. 50 mins awayy.. to the next day!

lol..

i will be having my first paper at 10.30!

and dear will be having his last paper from 9 to 11!

dear! jiayous!

we can do it together.!

and SHOO the exams awayyy!!

far far away!!!

totallyy!~

no confidence in my DBMS!

will be studying after paper everydayy...

for intensive revision!

aiming for 3.9 this SEM!

one of my goals. for this SEM in poly!

to pull my GPA high high high

which means also stress level will be high

and more KIASUU!!!

fyp group members found alreadyy!

yeahh!~

doing with pl and xz!

cool mann!!~

never do proj with them before.

and it may be a good experience.

and good chance to see more.

and know how is it like doing with other ppl.

rather than keep staying at the same grp of peoplee!

okayy. and i think i shall stop herE!

going to SLPP!

mst is starting TML!

good luck to all my classmates and FRIENDS!

FOR TML's MST!! ((:

GAMBATTEEE!

2009-11-17T10:34:00.005+08:00

i really had a satisfying 2 hours 30 min ! ((:

although its just a short and plain 2 hours 30 min..

with your time spent together with your friends.

im already satisfied with being able to see you..

yesterday CHOMP CHOMP was a great day.

having you to say to meet me..

was a greattt thing for me ((:

although it was last min and a bit rush..

D.I.Y icecreammm was yummyy..

although did not bear to part from you.

but i will still loook forward to every moment to meet you ((:

MISS YOU... <3

dear will be having his exams starting this week.

or rather.his first paper will be on this thurs.

yesterday he told me he study until kee siaoo..

good luck for your exams DEAR.. JIAYOU!

i can sense and can feel that he has lack of confidence.

i dont know how can i help him.

what i can only do is to always be there for him...

and dear ends his paper at 7dec.

and im starting on 7DEC!

super scared TTM.. especially for DBMS.

totally no confidence in that module....

2009-11-15T21:47:00.017+08:00

im feeling very irritated

damn sian!

whole day stay home

just wished for just a peaceful day at home

without any disturbance

is that very hard?

i just want a peaceful day

like that also dont give me

freaking irritated

feel like scolding the F!

idiot!!

nag nag nag nag nag

small small thing also nag

never cook lunch also nag

bloody hell.

nobody ask you to cook for us wad.

also not i ask you to cook one.

scold me for what!

irritating POS!

and you never even think of why i dont like to stay at home

everytime say got boyf dont have family

who made me stay away from home

if i have such a wonderful family like my other friends have

no curfew

can go out any time i want

as late as i want

without anybody to nagg at me

JUST FOR SUCH SMALL SMALL THINGS

ALL TREAT ME LIKE MAID

sister sit at living room

ask me help her take her wallet from her bag

when its just 8 steps away!

AM I YOUR MAID?

I NO NEED SUCH TREATMENT!

AND STOP NAGGING AT TINY SMALL THINGS

AND STOP VENTING YOUR ANGER AT US WHEN YOU ARE IN BAD MOOD

WE ARE NOT YOUR CAUSE OF YOUR BAD TEMPER.!

dear have gone out for supper with his uni friends

I NEED WORDS OF CONSOLE AT THIS MOMENT OF TIME.!

BUT NOW I DONT HAVE ANY....

sometimes i think why his friends can enjoy with him

and yet why i cant?

i know i shldnt think this wayy!

probably im just jealousssss of those who can spend time with him.

and sometimes i think

why he is able to chat with his friends happily at his hall.

play with his friends.

enjoy happily

and i can only get to see him through webcam.

and only able to chat with him for mayb max 1hr?

why he has the time to go supper with them.

but has no time for me..

when can i have these?

IMPOSSIBLE!

i really have many doubts.

WOMAN is very xin fu with her bf

i really wonder when will i have that xin fu

that day will never even come at all..

all i wanted will never even come true.

i have already lost hope.

2009-11-13T10:33:00.036+08:00

the BAD week is OVER!

but dear hasnt gottt back his wallettt!

)))):

SADDEDDD!

school have beeen siannn.

but time passes damn quickly.

its already the last week of week 4.

4 more weeks to MST.

assignments are all just outt..

ASSIGNMENTS

and non stop

ASSIGNMENTS !!!

super siannn ...

however, im also liking ittt..

becausee

ITS NEARING DECEMBERRR!!!

dear will be having holidayyss!

hope this time round really can spendddd his dec holidays with himm..

how i really hoped that this will be a

SUCCESS

ENJOYMENT

ACCOMPLISHMENT

and a SPLENDID december holidays...!

PLSSSS just let it come trueee

justtt for onceee!

PLEASSEEEEE.....

hmmm.. yesterday haddd a great day with dear..

after school accompanied woman to visit T17!

and we stayed there for like..

3hourss!

lol! super duper long.

after that we headed to amk hubb

and i meet dear there...

YEAHHH!!!! HAPPYYY! ((:

and i saw my $25.90 WALLETT!! (((:

SMILEESSSS!!!

but never buy in the end alsooo

next month then buy loh..

LOL!!

hope when i wan to but that time still havee!! ((:

and andddd

POOR WOMAN!

have to suffer my enchants of 25.90!!

for until end of the monttthh!!! ((:

LOL!!

looking forward to meet dear in his hostel laterr..~

((:

2009-11-08T15:31:00.012+08:00

DAMN!

super duper hateee this weeek!

this week is just happening too many things at a time.

tons and tons of shockness just came too quickly..

how many more shockness will there going to be ?

dear is very suay this week.

firstly. wednesday lost his wallet in bus 74.

and now yet to retrieve back his wallet.

hopes that his wallet will be back safely this week.

his important stuff are all inside there.

IC. EZLINK. POSB DEBIT CARD.

DRIVING LICENSE.

NTU STUDENT ID CARDD..

and some other stuff are all inside.

if i never asked him to go out.

i think all this will not eveen happen.

its all me.

secondly. yesterday accident at bukit batok.

his car window broke.

nicholas injured his hands and had to go hospital.

dear will have to pay a stranger $.

cause his car was scratched by the broken glasses.

damn it.

and a bad news yesterday too.

his god ah-ma passed away last night.

its just too quickly

moment after the bk batok incident happened.

is this a sign ?

my condolences to his ah-ma...

all these are just happening too quickly.

and especially all within this week.

will it be because of the celebration on tuesday?

dear didnt celebrate his birthday all the while.

except for the 1st and the 21st.

could it be because if this ?

or mayb i shldnt even celebrate his birthday ?

im starting to feel guiltyy..

or rather have been feeling guilty..

hopes the next week will be a better week for dear..

PRAY HARDD!~

2009-11-03T23:04:00.027+08:00

TODAY

okayy!

im super duper satisfied now!

lol!

today after schoool.

bluff dear that im going homee!

actually going to his hall and wait for time to pass.

and until the right timing then celebrate his bday together!

loL!

he expected that sumthing will go on..

but he didnt expect that i would turn up at his hostel!

SURPRISEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

hahaaha!

cOOL!

reached his hostel at 4

until 6 plus was at elaine's room chatting with her..

then keep going to min hua's room and plannn how 2 celebrateee! ((:

hahaa..

and then finally the time has comeee!

was super duper ultimately nervouss!

and everything was a successs

THANKS TO ELAINE AND 49-PEEPS who helpped ME! ((:

AND FOR THOSE WHO TURNED UPPP AT THIS CELEBRATION!

dear.. i hoped you really loved my presentsssss

and mainly the surprise with me PONG-ing the CAKE ((:

and im like super ultimately nervous.

handss were shivering and shaking! LOL!

HAPPY BIRTHDAYY TO YOUU!! ((:

everything is worth to make your birthday memorable

i hoped you enjoyed your 23rd birthdayy!

LOVESSS <333333333333333

FRIDAY 30 OCT..

we went to xuepeng's housee to eat steamboatt!

WOMAN has gems after school! so went to buy ingredients firsttt!!

after that waited for her to COMEE!

LOL!!

laughhh to the maxx at his housee!

and enjoyedd the fun at his housee!

and his hseee damnn BIGG WORS!

3 storey terrace houseee!!!LOL!

if i were to stay in this kind of house!

i would die of cleaning the wholee housee SIAL!LOL!

and we keep taking picturess in his housee! LOL

after that at night headed to dg to EATT ROCHOR TAUU HUAYY!

hahaha!

wthhh

WOMAN said it was nicee!

but its was rather normall!

to mee lah!

but the YOU TIAO super duper nice to eatt

not CHAO DA

not too hardd!

and its very crispyy!!

LOL!

really loved the times when im being with them

what ever that troubles me will always be gone! ((:

more pictures on FB ((:

2009-10-27T23:34:00.023+08:00

i must learn to adapt to my life now.

learn to get used to it.

dear has no time for me.

this week only meeting him on sunday.

only one day.

how i wished that time would just stop at this moment.

where we would able to enjoy this day.

time just passes so quickly when with him.

i understand that uni life is like that.

events and events and non stop events.

it not what you want. its true.

how i wisheddd that you werent staying in hostel.

probably have more time..

and more time for studies too.

often dreamt that what if you never stay hostel.

you wouldnt have so many activities.

and sometimes i wake up.

and tell myself.

its only nothing but a dream.

not to take it for real.

im trying very hard to control how i feel.

whenever unable to meet.

please give me time.

i need to adapt to this environment.

i often think backk.

the days spent together during outings.

with your friends.

with my friends.

supper.

working together.

and how i hope i will be able to turn back the time.

to when we first met.

although its impossible.

i envy my friends who are able to meet their bf few times a week.

envy those who are always busy.

be it going out.

studying.

how i hope to be busy.

and time will just pass quickly.

without having to think too much.

taking a part time job is just too high a risk for me.

suddenly i hoped to have many assignments.

this keeps me occupieddd.

and the time to december would just arrive..

i shall make sure that december is spent well.

with lots of memories.

and hopes this will not turn out to be disappointments as well.

the sense of secure is just not there.

or mayb its just not strong enuff.

i dont know when you will be freee.

and what if something happens to me.

will you be there for me ?

will i be even able to reach you..?

life have just to carry on

although everything is just like a dream

within a few hours and it will be gone.

how i hoped to be able to receive at least a surprise from you.

15 more mins to our 8th month anni!!!

HAPPY 8th MTH ANNI DEAR...!

<33333333

AT 12 AM...

HAPPY 8th MTH ANNI DEARRR!!!<33333333333

I LOVEE YOUUU! <3

as requested by yoouuuu...

these are the pictureesss for our 8th month annii!!!

WOOHOOO!!!

ALL theseee are REQUESTED by dearr!

except the PRINT SCREEN ONESS! (((:

although its just a plain.. 1 hour.. of webcaming session.

i suddenly enjoyedd it.

(((:

thanks DEAR..! and thanks for that surprise picture!

despite how busy you were !! ((:

2009-10-13T00:00:00.009+08:00

woohooo

back from my poly class gatheringg!

damnn funn sia!

although it was like raining

and we didnt manage to go to marina barragee!

although was raining..

end upp planned to go to a place sit down

chit chat

finishedd up the foodd...

and then we went to esplanade the dance floor there.

but in the end changed location to the roof terraceee!

because everyone was practically staring at us..

like wad are this bunch of kids doing ?

picnic-ing in the middle of nowhere.

and in the shelter?!

loll!

super paisehhhhh!

finallyyy switched locationn!

and went to the roof terrace at esplanade..

and had our food finished there.

and the food finished damn fastt .!

LOLL!

super deliciouss!

after that catched our movie.

500 days of summerr!

well..

a quite retarded romance show.

lol.

looks more like a documentaryyy..

lol...!

anddd after the summerr got married.

the guy got to know another girl

called autummmn!!

wthhh

then got winter?

spring ?

LOLLLLL!!!

due to my tirednessss

and the laiii anggg on sundayyy!

didnt carry on to chill at starbuck with themm..

lolll!

okayyss.

and today didnt message dear much.

cause his handphone got no batttt!

hahaha..

and nowadays dear has no confidence in his modules.

he feels like wanna dieee...

and got pissed off by his grp mates for his reporttttt..

i suddenly felt so dammnn USELESS!! )):

i donnt know how can i help him..

i cant help him in his studies.

all uni stufff.

i dunno hw i can help him to release stress...

accompanying study at his hse..

and im like slping.

like somee pigg!

DUNNO WADS WRONG WITH MEE TOOO!!

how can i help him ??

dont know what kind of gf am i!

dear.. im sorryyy..

i dunno hw i can help you.

jiayouss..

no matter wadd..im always by your sidee.. <33333333

2009-10-09T13:06:00.004+08:00

im feeling much better after one day.

dear has ice cream mooncakes for meee.

hoped to be able to receive them tonight.

and hopes that it will not gone case again.

have been staying at home for the 5 days

im feeling very bored.

ive watched finishedd my drama.

yesterday accomplisheddd wad i wanted to do.

playing cafe world in fb.

really very bored.

and dear is so busy

when will singapore flyer come true?

hopee after his exams able to.

if not another disappointment.

we didnt get to sit the previous promo.

which was $10 for students that time.

i reallyy hoped to be able to sit with him.

without having him to spend alot of $$.

im just looking forward to the school reopen.

at least i wont feel bored.

and lonely at home.

sisters are studying

parents working.

friends having lessons.

i can really feeel the boredom.

dear told me to get used to it.

but im just so used to going out of the hse like everyday

suddenly ask me stay at home for the 5days

its not 4dayssss

its 5 daysss

i really just cant adapt to it.

having to think of what to cook for my lunch

treated like some maid in the hse.

ask me do this do that

its not easyyyy

saying is easy

but doing is not.

and i really hoped to celebrate dear's birthday with him..

it may not be a perfect one.

just spend a day.

or probably half a day

with him.

eat dinner..

2009-10-08T00:18:00.006+08:00

dammmmnnnn dissaapooointedd to the MAXXX
at first thought at leasttt can meet dear on fridayyy!!
super looking forwarddd to that dayyy!
every weeekk
without fail.!
alwaysss looking forward to that dayy!
end up!
damnn disappointeddd!

now even meet for dinner also cant even meet
i feeel the angryness!
SIANNNESSS!
DISAPPOINTMENNTTT
anddd i justt feeel like screammingg!!!!

DAMMNNNNNN ANGRRRRYYYYY!!!!!!!!
ROARRRRRRRRRR

AND AS ALWAYSSS!
WHAT I ALWAYS EXPECTED
WILL TURN OUT TO BE SOMETHING BADDDD
ALWAYS PLANNED TO MEET
END UP NEVER MEETTT!

BE IT FRIENDS OR DEAR.

AM I ALWAYS THAT SUAY TO THE MAXX!

THE MORE I WISHED AND LOOK FORWARD TO THE DAY
THE MORE DISSAPOINTMENT I GEETT!

and i knowwww its nottt your FAULTTTTTT

buttt still disssappointedddd!!

im trying really hardd to controll my temperrrr...

but i really cannttt

and im still waiting to sit the flyer with DEAR

and dont think i can.

2009-10-05T14:47:00.010+08:00

WOOHOO!!

the class outing havee been settleddd!

after much much much discussionssss!! ((:

shiookkk ahhhh...!

the outing will be on 11oct mondayy!

we will be meeting at cityy hall at 3pm!

and then head to suntec city carrefour to buy the 1.5litre drinks.

and of courseee ICEEEE..

then we shall take a cabb downn to marina barragee!

prayy hard that the weather on that day is GOODDDD..

so that we can enjoyyyyyy to the fulless! ((:

some ppl are in charge of bringing some things:

Fadhli - nuggets.

Azhari - Sandwich.

Adha - Hotdogs and ice container.

Me - poker cards, uno cards, disposable utensils...

Im soo loooking forward to that dayyy..!

okayss.. and on fridayy me and mavis were like being CRAZYY!

woohooo!! we eat and eat and eat !

as if the food free onee!

LOL!

at first wentt to bugisss!

and finally managed to buy my white shortss for $25!!!

at first wanted to wait till dinner then eatt

but we cant stand itt!

so just buy snacksss to eat before dinner

CHESSE SAUSAGE!

then DURIAN PANCAKEE!! shioksss AH!

then after that headed to dinnerr!

STEAMBOATTT!

then DESERTTTTT!

thennn STARBUCKSSS!!

finally ROTI PRATA!!

woohoo!

dunno why also eat eat eat non stop

also not FULL!

confirmm gain weight!! ((:

but i really enjoyeddd that nightttt! ((:

talk talk talk

gossip gossip gossip..

all about our past..

during sec school

i really missed my sec school life..! ((:

hope can turn back the timeee...

okayy.. i finally found the reflexive game keygen CRACK

im sooo going to stay at home for 4 days this week

mon to thurs.

cause

gf, v and g all start school!

mavis gg overseasss!

LOL

siannn!! prob i shall start to play the games downloaded.. ((:

TATAA!!

dear have been mugging for his testtt that are coming..
hope he will not be too stresseddd..
good luckss to him for all his testss!
jiayouss dear..!!
GAMBATEEE!!
<3333333

2009-09-29T15:49:00.002+08:00

woohooo!
dearr is back from his thailand tripp!!
yeahhh-nesss!
anddd he bought lotssss of presents for meeeee...
LOL!!
didnt know he buy so manyyy!!!
WASTE $$$$$!
lolll....
but anywayysss.. thanks dear for the presentsss!
lovedd them..

dear will be having his so-called MST soon.
in like a week
and he will have no timeee for me..
but its okayyss..
i just hoped that he wont be so stresseddd
and will keeep jiayou-ing all the wayyss.
JIAYOUS DEAR..!

and now im back to the boredom state.
hope school just quickly start
and i will start to aim for my good results.
and the main thing is not to get boreddd.
so bored to deathh..
and im so going to plan the class outing..
the journey to marina barrage...
the place i always wanted to go! ((:
at this moment so far..
was planned to be on mondayyy (11oct)!! ((:
but poh leong cant join us for the marina barragee
SADDDD
he has ITPP!

okays.. so for now
my boredom state will be
searching for mr bean videos to watch
in order to entertain myself.
and plan the class outing..
which i never planned before
and
wad do we have to bring?
ive never been to picnic beffoRE!
LOLL!!!
HELPPPSSSSS

and im so looking forward to fridayyy
the day that will be meeting v,g,and maviss!
wootsss
shiokss ahh!
and might be eating
STEAMBOAT!
and prob going to chill out at
STARBUCKSS!
or go JALAN KAYU!
eat ROTI PRATA!
and i feeel like going to SENTOSAA!! ((:
loll!! and BUGISSS!

and i hoped to sit the singapore flyer with DEAR....

2009-09-28T00:41:00.005+08:00

time suddenly pass so slowlyy..
im like counting down for the time..
the day when dear will be back.

saturday went to adha's open hse for hari raya..
SELAMAT HARI RAYA..!
the food his mum cooked was deliciouss.. (:
although his hse was like so FAR..
lol.
after that went with woman to AMK hubbb...
then headed the journeyy back homee...
that day was gone that slowly..
just like that...

sundayy.. stayedd at home the whole day.
recently too bored at home. and decided to watch back to the old tvb series.
ARMED REACTION.
and the total episodes is like.. 20.
and im now like at 13.
sianss..
i can feeel the borednesssss at home..
not a single message from dear..
dear only messaged me on friday.
the rest of the days no sound no pic.
emo-nesss..
suddenly felt that time was passing slowly.
GF was working for F1.
but was sick.
so cant go out.

today.. which is mondayy...
at this time. 12.45 AM.
im still not slping.
dear will be back today-nesss!
at 4pm will touch down in singapore.
but i never received a message from him..
wonder if he rememberss wad day is it today.
wonder if he really have forgotten all about it.
really hoped to receive a message from him.
but i doubt this will be coming true.
impossible.
given the time shown on the clock.
12.45am.

im really missing himm.. )):

dear..happy 7th mth anni.. <3

gotten my RESULTS

2009-09-25T01:16:00.003+08:00

results were finally releasedd.
on the 23rd sept.
woke up at 10 plus to check my email to look at my results.
rather okay la..
maths and RWP - Dist.
Gems - A
Flash and NSM - B+
Java - B

rather satisfieddd.. my hard work really pays off..
that was how i think
AT THAT MOMENT
GPA wasnt stated in the email.
had to wait till 1.00pm to look at GPA through SAS
finnally..
when it was 1pm..
how i felt was totally different
suddenly felt hopeless..
angry with myself for not working har enufff..
cummalative GPA of 3.3. wasnt enufff..
i have to work even harder.
triple harddd..
to get GPA 3.7 next sem.
or mayb higher.
i need some SUPPORT from DEAR, my dearest FAMILY. and my FRIENDS...

and today. finally can collect my laptopp..
but however was super pissed with my bloody laptop.
due to webcam problem. sent it to repair.
finally can collect
thought can use the webcamm on msn. with dear.
end up come home. want to use.. cannot use aagain.
freaking pissed and angry
i was thinking.
like i send my laptop in also no use. not much help was done.
ACER eRECOVERY was just gone suddenly..
reformat too many times also will spoil the harddisk.
even if reformat. if next time got the same problem. shldnt be keep reformatting also.
really lost with words.
just felt that
this laptop is driving my CRAZY!
and i seriously niddd the webcamm to webcammm with dearr..
CAUSE I SELDOM MEETT HIMM...! )):

and the saddest thing on earth..
dear is flying soonn..!
flight of 10 am
at budget terminall..
and will be gone till mondayy..
saddeddd...
i will MISS HIMM MUCHH! )):
hoppess he will have a safe journey there and backk..

and im just going to pass my timeeee.. with friends...
todayy.. which is fridayy will be meeting mavis, vivienne. and geraldine.
saturday will be going to adha's open hse.
so..
1 day of lonelinesss at homeee.
and monday dear will be baackk...

back to blogging

2009-09-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

i've decided to blog again.. due to the boredom-NESS..
and i did a very stupid thing
by thinking that today (tuesday) is 23rd of septtt!
and i just realisedddddd.. thanks to PL
that its the 22nd todayy!!
omggoodnesss!
and GF was like asking me about my results..
and we were like chatting on FB...
buttttt..
disappointmenttt... today is not 23rdd!! omggggg!
hw stupid can i be mann!!
im feeling super CHUI and PAISEHHH!
somemore today keep telling dear.
that im going to get my resultsss!!
SHIT-NESS too meeeee!! )):
how stupiddd can i beee!! )):

okayssss and im going to start to feel the boredom and the sadnesss...
woman have goonee to GENTINGGGG todayy!! or rather mondayy..
and she will only be back on 25thh!!
and on 25th.. dear is going to fly to bangkokk!!
and he'll onlyyy be back on our 7th mth anni.. )):
saddeddd.. our 7th mth anni flies away...

and i guesss that i shld slppp nowww...
to get rid of my CHUI-NESS! and PAISEH-NESSS!!
and TIRED-NESS!!
TATAAA!